Sunday, October 24, 2004

``_____.*It dis wat a Birthday shld b like?!.#

Sigh...bday was sick...h8 it...noboci cares...nt even d 1 hu gives birth to mie...she's oni concern abt "him", nobodi gives a damn...cryin is all i can do...sumtimes, nobodi even noe i cried...bt, cryin won't change d fact tt she's oni concern abt him...few days ago, she dun rmbr it's my bday till my sis says. Nobodi noe hw hurtful it is, can u imagine it?! Ur mum!!! Dun even noe ur bday's rnd d corner. And wen she cnt gt to cel "his" bday, she vent her anger on moi sis...bt today, she even 4gtten abt it, till afternoon, sumtimes i wonder, is she my biological mother?! If so, den y am i treated differently?!

Of all ppl at hm...y mus i b d 1 doin evrythingys while d others dun have to?! Dey dun do anithingys and dey were treated so much beta, jus like queens and kings, while i have to b d 1 hu b d slave. Evrtime i hav to go hm aftr sch asap, y mie?! And i h8 it!!! Hu dun like to go hm early and rest?! Bt, wen i gt hm, wat mus i do?! I have to do so mani thingys tt other ppl dun have to wen dey gt hm. Ppl's house is filled wit warm-ness, love & care to evrybodi, bt, hw abt mie?! Yes!!! I have dem at hm, bt, it's nt towards evrybodi, it's oni to dem...

He's gt evrythingys he wanted, and he den even hav to do a thingy to gt it, wat abt mie?! I do evrythingy i can to b a gd daughter, bt, all my effort is nt recognize, I noe we dun hav to do thingys to let ppl praise, bt, at least treat mie beta!!!

thankies to dear 4 cel moi bday wit moi...

u understand mie more den moi mum do...

u dote on mie more den moi mum do...

u love mie more den moi mum do...

and nt forgttin D.K and Piku(Jo) hu has oways bin der weneva dey can...

^so y pretend to care wen u're actuali nt?!^

*tryin to hold back my tears while writing dis*wishin i had d courage to take my own life rather den letting her torture like tt*filled wit hatred*

11:59 PM Z